Saul Ronan Lee was a much-loved young man who was the night before he was found dead in a grassy area of Ravensthorp, West Yorkshire.
A popular young footballer sent an emotional text message to his girlfriend just hours before he took his own life, an investigation has found.
Saul Ronan Lee told her he was “sorry for everything” before admitting he made it so hard to let you go.
The 22-year-old, who played futsal for Huddersfield Town Academy until he suffered an injury, was found dead in the grassy area of Ravensthorp in West Yorkshire on the morning of October 9 last year.
The investigation heard that Saul was a popular young man who was looking forward to going to the races and enjoying his new job, reports YorkshireLive.
Saul’s ruined parents, Terence and Frances, described their son as a popular individual with a large network of friends in Mirfield, where he grew up, and beyond. His funeral was attended by about 400 people.
An investigation revealed that Saul was his usual “lucky bubble” the night before he died, where he met friends at a pub.
A friend explained that he had not noticed anything unusual at night, and just before 2 a.m. he received a message in which Saul said he loved him and would see him soon.
The investigation found that it is normal for friends to exchange such messages.
Assistant coroner Angela Brocklehurst also read a text Saul sent to the girl the night before her death.
In the text, Saul said, “I hate myself. I invested everything to be happy and it didn’t work out.
“I’m not good enough for anyone, I know. I’m s ***, no ambition, no nothing, but I love more than anyone.
“Over time, I will be the person I want. I’m sorry for everything. I care about you more than anyone.
“It’s so hard to let you go.”
The coroner said he had “something looted in his mind” but could not say what he meant, adding: “There are many things about this death that we don’t know about.”
Saul, who has had no mental health problems in the past, was in his new job for two months as a trainee to set up the machines, which he enjoyed, his father said. Prior to that, he worked as a lifeguard at the Dewsbury Sports Center.
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Saul said before speaking about the suicide that he could not understand why someone would do such a thing, his father said in the investigation.
An autopsy revealed Saul had high levels of alcohol in his body and was said to be drunk. The pathologist said the cause of death was hanging.
The coroner told Saul’s family, “Please accept my condolences and condolences for your terrible loss.
“It’s a tragedy, all the more so because Saul was such a young man who had a lot ahead of him.
“I can’t answer the question why. I don’t know if anyone can. We never know what’s on another person’s mind.
“But it’s such a waste and a tragedy.”